Plain.

School is boring. My life is boring. I honestly go through the day, waiing for the moment when I can eat. For the few minutes that I'm eating, I feel normal. Happy. Only because I know i'm following my plan. I smile wen I burn my tongue because I know I won't want to eat anything else. I hate that, while pickles have no calories, they have a SHIT ton of sodium and 1 gram of carbs. That was the most shocking thing that happened to me today. No I feel shittyand fat for eating pickles. PICKLES. It makes my SO mad that my dad refuses to buy me the vegan foods at our grocery store. He's a meat and potatoes man, and thinks anyone who's diffeent is unnatural. Well... I just want to have tofu and squash noodles. Is that okay? God. Anyway, here;s how today was.
Consumed:
Apple- 80
2 sticks gum- 10
2 pickles slices- 0 (440 g sodium)
cup of soup- 290
Total: 380
I'm wayyy too lazy to work out lately. I just refuse to. It'll slow down my weight loss a lot but... i don't know. oh well. I have no motivation to work out. Since my dinner tomorrow is pretty low cal, I'm lettimg myeslf eat B, L, and D.
Plan:
B: raisin bread slice (toasted, 0 cal spray maybe)- 80 (CARBS GALORE)
L: apple- 80
D: some kind of frozen lean cuisine chicken thing. -200
S: 1 Gum& 1 pickle allowed- 5 cal
Total: 365.
I'll take my multivitamin in the morning. I find that, when i take it, i always get super full. So if I eat my bread, then take my multivitamin, i might not even have to eat lunch. I dunno. Gahh, my stomach hurts soi'm probably going to go to bed early. <3