Done.

Not like it really matters, but i really don't want to talk about the past week. At. All. If I sum it all up, it basically ends with me gaining back ALL the weight I lost. All. Of. It. Optimism? Lost it. Motivation? Forgot what it was. Now I'm sitting here, my dark brown hair now died burgundy, my previously flattened stomach protruding once more. I'm a disgusting cow. An awful, ugly, fat cow. I figured the new hair would wrap up my good year, and let me start anew. I guess I'll have to start that tomorrow, because right now I'm the same fat ass that I've always been. I don't even deserves to be on here, because I saw blogging as a privledge, as something that the thin brea could do in her spare time. But no, I can't be happy. Not even for a little while. I've been binging since last weekend. And as of no, I'm done. No more pizza, or chicken, or baked potatoes. No more juice or pop or cookies, no more milk and cereal, no more yogurt or chinese food or potatoe chips. no more candy or lattes or bacon. No. More. I've got one week left of break. One week, before I can start back at school as a new and improved me. One more week. I can do this. I've done it before, virtually effortlessly. I can do it again, longer than before, harder than before. I feel like I'm about to go to war, and in a way I am. I'm going to war with myself. With fat, stupid me, fighting for thin, smart, purple haired me. i don't deserve to have dyed my hair. It was supposed to be my reward, and now I've just soiled it. I ruin everything. Starting tomorrow, it all ends. Everything. Goodbye, farewell. I hope I never see your disgusting face in the mirror another day.

Old Me:

• Dark brown hair
• Fat arms, stomach, legs, face
• Quiet
• Sloppy
• Procrastinator
• Clumsy
• Weird
• Nervous around boys
• Eats all the time
• Rude
• Whore
• Sarcastic
• Push-over
• Overly-emotional
• Ugly
• No fashion sense

New Me:

• Purplish/Red hair
• Thin arms, concave stomach, tiny legs
• Out-going
• Neat/Clean
• Organized
• Poised
• Unique
• Sexy/Playful around boys
• Rarely ever eats/Never feels hunger
• Polite
• Classy
• Sarcastic ;D
• Opinionated/Her own person
• Strong, feels NOTHING.
• Gorgeous
• Highly fashionable.

Starting... now!