Family.

138.5.
I guess I should be happier about this. It'll just kinda be... I don't know. It's not really a milestone or anything like 139 or 135. I'm content with it at least decreasing, but you know. Also, I thought there would have been some physical change by now, but there's not. I know there's not physical change because no one's said anything to me about it. Given, I haven't really seen anyone since Friday, and anytime I did see someone I was bundled under a million layers of clothes. So if anything I looked bigger. Today, I've got a plan to bring up my blood sugar. Or to just prevent me from collasping again. I jut got up and I'm drinking a really big glass of water. I think I'll drink a big glass of water every other hour, if not every hour. In a couple hours I'll have some oatmeal. (Just checked, and we don't have ANY fruit in my house. None. The apples all have huge bruises and are moldy and disgusting. So... I have to find another source of sugar. Crap.) I'm kind of just waiting for someone to say something to me about my weightloss. I planned the whole experiance out in my head. "Hey Brea... you look like you lost some weight." "Do I really? I've been eating a lot lately." "You look smaller. What have you been doing?" "I know I've started working out again. I run everyday and go to the YMCA with my friends every week. I play wii fit for hours." "Wow, you'll need to help me out."
That's generally what my mom's side would say. My dad's side would say, "Brea! You're looking really good!" "Thanks." Yeah. They're the side of the family that if you're fat, everyone gets on you about it. EVERYONE. So, basically, i could be emanciated, and then I would fit in. Can you tell which side I'm closer to? There are a couple cousins on my dad's side that I love to no end. They're sister and brother. The brother is a year younger than me and the sister is a freshman in college. They always include me when they go to the art museum or ice skating and stuff. The brother always picks me up, and it makes me feel like I'm actually pretty. i don't know, its weird. They make me feel like I'm important, like if I wasn't there as well, they wouldn't be having such a good time. It's rare that people make me feel that way, so I appreciate them.

IF NOTHING ELSE READ THIS. :)
I want to be a little healthier for the rest of this week. Do you guys think I should raise my intake by a little? Like, instead of 400 should it be 550? The problem is, I just don't know what I'd eat. I'm just worried because I have school the rest of the week, i'm sure, and I don't want to feel faint when i'm there.

Well, I'm gunna go on pretty thin. I don't want to type out everything right now, because I really have nothing else to do today. <3