My step mom just made a big breakfast, like she always does. But today she decided to make sausage, which I'm always begging her to make on my binge days but she won't. So, to make sure I didn't eat any of it, I made a big plate of food, squeezed mustard on it ( I HATE mustard) sprinkled a bunch of sugar and salt on it, poured gravy and syrup all over it, and then put a half cooked piece of egg on top. I ran it up to my room and ripped it all apart, and smashed it. It looked and smelled worse than anything I've ever seen. I should've taken a picture, damn. Anyway, then i went and threw it away. but I made sure that the fork I used had some food on it so that they'd think I ate. Besides, she saw me make my plate. So, I'm good. :) She never makes lunch so I can make my soup. They'll think I'm just eating a lot today. Whatever.
I'm not sure if losertown is accurate, but if it is then I'll be 129 by 1/03/11. I swear, that would make me so happy. I just have to keep eating less than 400 calories a day. I'm worried about Chirstmas vacation. I'm going to be with my mom the whole time, and usually when I'm with her, I always over eat because she is an amazing cook. I'm basically going to have to start this whole story of me eating chicken at lunch and it making me sick. Which is very possible. I can like, pretend to be gagging in the bathroom and shit. That'll be how I can get away with only eating small stuff. I really hope this works, because my mom pays a lot more attention to me than my dad and his wife do. My mom notices when I lose like, a pound, and whenevr I call myself fat she tells everyone in my family so they can yell at me? Whatever.
Once my best friend leaves I'll work out. If she isn't up by 12:30, I'm just going to go and make my soup.
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