Worthless.

What's this? I feel so fat and disgusting. Why? Because I'm fat and disgusting. I ate some more rice, and although i'm sure it wasn't a lot, i feel like I binged. I spent the past two hours beating myself up about how fat and disgusting I am. I'm so worthless. I hate feeling this way. I just wish my legs werent so HUGE. I wish that when I pinched my stomach, all there is to pinch is a little skin. But no, I can grab two huge handfuls of fat. I HATE MY LIFE. I hate myself, I'm disgusting.

This guy who likes me (probably only for sex) is mjad at me because he said that I seem different tonight. I'm fucking sorry that I'm a fat nasty whore who can't do anything right. (Sorry for the language.) I'm going to go to sleep, or at least try to. maybe in the morning my stomach will be a tiny bit flatter. ;( God. I just wish I could be tiny and pretty. That's all I want.